Do you know what the saddest thing in life is? The fact that we are our biggest critiques, we are our own bullies, and we are our own Satan.
A lot of the time, the devil is just lazying around, sipping on a cup of tea doing nothing, while we do most of the work for him.
I woke up this morning a little bit drained, uninspired, a bit discouraged about the work I do on my blog which is just a year old now. Through the cause of the year, I have been on and off with my commitment to this site, not because I wasn’t getting any views, I had an average of 60 per day which is great, the first blog I ever had never got a single view till this very day!
In the last quarter of this year, I promised myself that I would break the loop of inconsistency I had formed in following through with set goals and plans. I had promised myself that I would subdue the habit of giving up too soon. I promised I’d learn to give myself a bit more chance and patience, as people tend to give up too soon.
With a bit more commitment, this past two months, I’ve been able to reach hundreds of people, with my views breaking the 1k marker that had seemed so elusive just a couple months back. Nevertheless, the feeling that my work and knowledge are painfully mediocre and I’m just getting lucky with the views still gnaws at me. It is quite easy to believe a result that people who have faithfully been reading, liking or even sharing are just being generous. I find myself wanting to quit.
I came to a realization that most often than not, our fears are frequently more disproportionate to the actual reality.
A more pervasive fact of life is that we often tend not to see our real worth, we do not know how amazing, talented or beautiful we are in reality.
Since we are constantly doubting ourselves, we often aim for too little, we do not see the difference we had made, so we pack our bags and leave too soon in defeat.
Other people see that insecurity, they exploit it. If you do not know your true value, how can you ask for what is rightfully yours in regal confidence? If you do not trust your work and what you present, why should other people do the same? Most people aren’t that generous.
One of my primary goals with my blog is that whenever people visited my website, I want them to find something new each day, I want them to have that “Aha!” Experience,” I didn’t know that” feeling. Leaving my site a little bit better than they came.
We all have dreams and goals, we are constantly searching for fulfillment. We try to get pumped up every now and then through motivational videos, we resolve to be further disciplined, that’s great! Discipline, you’ll need it as you will not always feel good and confident about your work or self always.
As you begin the new week, keep in mind the words you’ve read today, look into yourself, and be a little bit more honest with yourself. There is a chance that you have been selling yourself short, that you have been brutal with your expectations of yourself and have been impatient.
Learn to give yourself a bit more credit for what you have and have accomplished no matter how little it is in comparison to your expectations and other people’s achievements.
In this new week, dare to believe more than you’d like to.