I’m not new to the whole intermittent fasting thing, I’ve done that can a couple of times in the past.
Water fasting, that is, not consuming any food other than just water, then maybe coffee, and some apple cider vinegar for a specific period of time has always been a Rousey for me. Two days was the longest I’ve ever gone without food in the past even though I had initially planned on going farther.
the reason I often chose to stop barely halfway through my commitment was never because I was starving to death, in fact, other than the occasional lightheadedness which is to be expected when your body is going through a major withdrawal phase from all the carbs and sugar, I felt great and the hunger pangs were virtually nonexistent, nevertheless, I’d still find myself making up all sorts of “rational” excuses as to why I shouldn’t continue, somehow I would always find a way to break off my commitments.
Initially, I thought this mental weakness, my inability to keep to a plan, my indiscipline, lack of self-control, and my hyper fickle nature was only present in the face of food, I thought that if I was placed in a different situation I wouldn’t have such weaknesses, that somehow I’d rise to the occasion and do what needs to be done, but that was an illusion.
we often like to think that our lives, character, and habits are compacted. We like to think that even though we act a certain way in a particular situation, or respond/react a certain way to a particular event or person, that if the context were different we would be different, but habits are not isolates but relative. If you were unhappy in New York, you’d be unhappy in Paris. If you were an asshole to coworkers or friends, you’d be an asshole to your spouse or family.
I for a fact came to realize how this law of relativity worked in my own life too, I wasn’t just unreliable, indisciplined, totally irrational when it comes to food, with a deathly ‘fear of missing out’ (FOMO) on immediate pleasures. I saw it at work in every area of my life, sometimes to a lesser or greater extent.
This blog is three years old now, but I am yet to reach my 100th blog post even though I had set the milestone for accomplishing this in early February this year, we’re in July!
Certainly, the number of unique visitors I get to this blog has doubled within these past four months, from 8k/month to 10k/month, and now over 20k. Not too long ago a reader had even taken the time to send me an email thanking me for a particular blog post on my blog, that was the first of it’s kind, usually, people just drop a comment on site. I was touched, but at the same time, I felt undeserving!
Mind versus the animal
I’ve been trying to lose 5 pounds since August 2019! “Five pounds” is all that is between me and my ‘dream body’. However, every month, my waistline seems to increase. I tried going low carb, I tried intermittent fasting, they all worked, I’d shed a bit while I’m at it, but a week later I’ve gotten back whatever I’ve lost. This usually follows right after I’d start to make excuses of why I could cheat here and there, somehow I always had the Best of excuses lined up in my head to justify and excuse myself. It’s always a slippery slope downhill from there.
Believe me, it is never a good time to diet or fast!
last night I decided to confront myself and the bad habits I had formed over the years, it had already started to negatively impact my life on a more obvious level. I made a decision to finally conquer myself. Granted, this was not the first time I had raised such a war flag against the self, and every single time I had gone to war, I had lost. But the 100th time is always the charm, right?
Day 1 of my 7 day water fast
Laying on my bed last night as I came to this conclusion, I knew that I would have to mentally prepare myself for the coming days, I knew my greatest challenge was not the juicy food that I’d be offered during the fast, nor my body giving up on the quest that’ll be the problem, but my mind, and all the negativity I had pilled up against myself and my capabilities that’ll be the devil I’d have to contend with.
The year 2020 will be the year my life would experience a 180° turnaround!
Even if this year is already halfway through, it’s never too late to make a U-turn. I’m sure as hell not finishing this year the same way I began it.
This morning the weirdest of things happened, I swear the devil is out to get me!
Out of all days, for the first time ever in the history of my family so far have we ever had doughnuts for breakfast, but it happened today! And I was the one who had to make it for the family since I was the only one who knew how to.
I had to sit and watch my precious babies get devoured by everyone else while I sat and asked them “how does it taste like” as I drool.
My dad even had the nerves to suggest we prepare some steak for lunch knowing how much of a sucker I am in the face of grilled meat, dear Lord!
I had to remind myself constantly of why I am choosing to do this, it is more than just some weightloss quest and the aesthetic benefit, as I feel that would be a shallow reason for me to undergo such a great level of discomfort. I would know that because every single time I had made that the end goal I never seem to fall through, I tell you “body positivity” is a bitch!
I guess that’s what you get when you’re overly “satisfied” with the way you look.
To kick off my seven-day quest, I decided to make day one a dry fast, I would consume nothing at all, not even water, I had noticed from previous experience that if I don’t eat nor drink anything at all, I am less likely to crave food or feel hunger.
Nevertheless, I have never gone 24 hours without drinking water in my life, I had planned that I would at least drink water by 3:00 pm today if I start to get thirsty, but it’s 4:40 pm now as I type this and I feel perfectly fine!
You should note however that I did not attempt to do any form of strenuous workouts today, especially one that might cause me to perspire and up my need for fluids.
Although I do not know what’s install for me within the coming days, I think I’m off to a good start, mentally, physically, and emotionally. I am curious to know the strength of my character and resilience, I want to know my limits and then push it back even further, I will win this time!
I will be making daily updates as the week rolls by, documenting my thoughts and experiences, I can do this, I know I can.
I’m going full on beast mode!
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